For My Mother : Happy Mothers Day

Some time ago.. a woman existed.. childlike and cute
Pretty as a mermaid and eyes like dew
She was born when i was born.. She was the mother in you..
She never existed before.. the feeling was new..
Yes.. she was the mother in you..

You were anxious.. and you were nervous
You had in your arms, a new life.. which left you clueless..
You soon realised it would'nt be as easy as a stroll..
Coz from now ... your heart will walk outside your soul

You gave me your wings.. when i wanted to fly
You cried with me.. when i wanted to cry
You became my strength .. when i was shy
You became my earth.. you became my sky

It killed you to see me grow inch by inch..
Though you knew it would kill you more if I dint..
You wanted to capture my every imprint
From my first footstep to my first eye blink

You patiently listened.. when i wanted to talk
You helped me untangle.. when there was a deadlock
You saw me grow.. to designer saree from a lacy frock
You always imagined.. you always thought...
the day your daughter.. will enter a wedlock

You visualised every bit... you fancied the shimmer
You imagined how she would dazzle in gold and sliver..
Would it be gowdy or would you keep it simpler
But that day you will bless her to be happy forever..

"As is the mother.. so is her daughter".. as this proverb says
I promise to be like you.. in life and its every phase
You are most precious and will always be
Thanks for being the best mom..
Lest i would never be..

My cute grandma..

i cannot sleep and wake up at five
just wondering will you ever come back to life

where did u you go nani my heart thinks
tears roll down when my eyes blink

u taught me to laugh .. u taught me to cry
but you forgot to teach me why people die

i never called back, i had no time
had i known that humans are sublime

i cried i yelled and i wept
i had no choice but to accept

i lost my cutest sweetheart
and your loss left bruises in my heart

sometimes i wonder will this pain subside
or in my soul it will just hide

i can only pray that your sufferings cease
and may your soul rest in peace
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The sour taste of ur aachar still tickles my tastebuds
U called me 'suneha' and it still rings in my ears
The sweetness of the khorakh that u made for us,
still lingers on my toungue..
We all loved you for u were the cutest grandma in the world..
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I suggest you move on...

She says - 'I suggest you move on'..

You will suddenly feel as if earth has moved below your feet... Tsunami has struck your heart and there is a sudden rush of adrenaline in your brain.. you dont know how to react.. you want to stop it but you know somewhere inside that it wont stop..
You promised you wont be angry at her.. for a while you were thinking you were the most patient man on earth..you anwered all her questions so patiently and repeteadly...you had answers to all her questions all this while.. but today there was nothing you had to say...
You knew this was going to happen.. but your heart is not ready to still believe it..
You fail to understand how can she be so heartless.. 
It took you 26 years to find a girl and like the icecream flovor she likes, but then she leaves you for no obvious reasons. you are left there disheartened, in a thoughtless state thinking the reason why she did so. you loved her and were willing to leave anything you had for her.
its difficult to forget someone so special and its even difficult to wait for someone...but you can forget her for her sake, or you can wait for a zillion years for her with just one assuring word that she will be back. But what should you do if you are not sure whether you should forget her or wait for her. she reserved a corner in your heart and that corner is hers forever.. no one ever can occupy that place and even she knows that.
She says 'I understand... but Hurting you hurts me equally'.. Understand??? Can she even understand 1% of what you are feeling now?? Hurting me hurts her ?? U will think there is nothing left in you to get hurt anymore....
She will say she dint do anything intentionally.... Intentionally?? then y did she even do it??
U know she was genuine all this while.. she is not heartless.. she is just too emotional.. but still you would scream at her..U want her to be hurt equally..but she would not be.. U r angry on her for the first time...

People will say you cant live without her.. but no.. here is the climax.. you can ..you can live without her... but!!! but!!! you cannot live with someone else too... you know your life will never be the same.
you think she played with your heart.. with your emotions.. you fail to understand why she did it to you.. but then your heart takes over and you are left thoughtless... there are no egos.. no chauvinisms.. no grudges.. no anger..only one voice echos again and again...
"I loved you a lot.. a lot"...

All love stories do not have a happy ending.. but they are special in their own way..they may last for 30 yrs, 3 yrs or just 3 months.. there is no measure of the amount of happiness and pain it brings with itself.

Disclaimer- Dont think i have written it for someone... and plzz it is not aimed at anyone!!1

It touched my heart ....

Disclaimer - The below poem is not my original, just loved it on internet and posted it here

I brought you the sun you said it was too bright
so I brought you the moon and you said it only shone in parts!
I gave you my strength you said I was too strong
so I toned it down and you said you didn’t feel protected!

I said I loved everything about you, you said I like to flatter
so I with-held my compliments and you said I don’t appreciate you enough!
I gave you my world you said all you needed was my attention
So I gave you all my attention and you said you are worth much more than just attention…
I bought you diamonds and pearls you said money can’t buy your love,
So I opted not to and you say money sustains relationships!

I said I wanted to rest and you said I was ignoring you
so I call on you every chance I get and you said I crowd your space!
I try being sensitive to your emotions you say I’m too soft
so I just show up when you call on me and you say I neglect you!
I tell you I love you, you say I need to show it
So I show you love and you say I have to say that I love you!

What I do never seems to be good enough
what I do not do is definitely bad enough:
Please take me as I am,
And I’ll certainly be what you want me to be!